Thursday, May 16, 2013

Final Presentation.

TABLE OF CONTENTS:

  • Poem: Calm Down. (Mentor text based on Rock On)
  • Fiction: Heavy Rain\
  • My Choice: Crayons
  • My Choice: Cold Turkey
  • Letter to Z
  • List O' Books
  • Self Evaluation















Piece of Poetry(Also Mentor Text): 

 I am giving you the direct order to calm down. Right now.

Calm down like the paper due tomorrow got pushed back a week
Calm down like you just robbed a bank and your team's van is getting away from the cops
Calm down like there was a zombie apocalypse but you still have your twinkies
Calm down like the girl that you've loved for years finally said yes.





Who am I kidding? PANIC
Panic like you just ran out of things to calm down about
Panic like you have ten seconds to eject
Panic like your parachute is sitting in your car, forgotten
Panic like there are only 17 almonds left
Panic like you just saw a dinosaur
Panic like it's the top of a roller coaster and your seat belt is broken
Panic like you just got shot
Panic like all the rum is gone
Panic like the silence before the answer you dread.
Panic like they have landed and they do NOT like us
Panic like you heart has stopped beating
Panic like you can't breathe.
Panic like there actually is no tomorrow

NOTE: The reference to rum is not a reference to underage drinking. Don’t Drink. It is a reference to Johnny Depp’s character in Pirates of the Caribbean.

Memo: I wrote this poem based on the “Rock Out” poem. I started just writing ‘calm down’ but i ran out of things to say, so i decided to change my topic to “PANIC.” My favorite part about literature is the humor in it, so I tried to make this poem as funny as possible and had fun fitting in all the references I could. I had more fun with this poem than I had with most of the other poems we wrote in class. 






Piece of Fiction:



The rain fell heavily that night. Heavier than it had in years. Not normal rain, but a rain that was much darker and thicker. She sat on her porch step and let the rain fall around her. It was done. The rain washed away the pain from what happened. Whenever she closed her eyes, all she could see was his face. Did she do the right thing? He deserved it, didn’t he? The woman stood, as if some invisible force was pulling her up, and began to walk away from the now-dark apartment complex.


The knife, now washed clean, dropped from her hand and crashed to ground. This sound seemed to wake the woman and she began to run. The rain fell in torrents, soaking the woman to her core. As she ran the rain seemed to envelop everything, As soon as she closed her eyes, the rain no longer felt like water. In the dark night, lit only by a solitary streetlamp long passed by, the rain looked like blood. Reminding her of what she had done. The man’s face again swam into her thoughts, pleading with her, asking for forgiveness. But there would be no forgiveness. Not for him. The woman’s tears mixed with the rain.


Her reverie was shattered when the blast of sirens broke the air. First one police car, lit up with sirens, drove by, followed immediately by another one. Finally, an ambulance finished the grim, flashing, procession. The woman’s heart all but stopped. She crouched on the curb, hoping that the torrents of rain would shield her from sight. The sirens faded, and soon the only noise was the heavy downpour.  She kept running; the rhythmic rise and fall of her feet becoming more spread out. Just get back to her building. That is all she needed to do. There it was. Relief washed over the woman. She staggered to the door, and struggled to fit the key into the lock. The lock gave with a satisfying ‘click’ and the woman fell through onto the dry, dimly lit, hallway. The door slammed shut behind her.
           
It took all the effort in the world for the woman to get herself to the third floor, through the door marked 4, and into her warm, sparsely furnished apartment. She peeled off her soaked clothes and turned the shower nozzle as far left as it would go. She sat at the bottom of her shower clutching her knees, the hot water pouring over her. Her tears mixed with the water. He didn’t deserve it. He didn’t deserve any of this. The minutes passed agonizingly. She ran through what happened in her head over and over again. The look of terror on his face; the face she once loved.
The heated water ran out and once again became a freezing torrent. The woman jumped out of the shower, turned the nozzle, and wrapped herself in a towel. As she walked out of the bathroom into the kitchen, one thing above all caught her eye: The knife block. One knife was missing. She knew where it was. The knife was sitting outside the man’s apartment complex. The woman collapsed against the counter, wracked by sobs. Her loud sobs slowly became quitter and less violent. The woman was calm. The woman stood.  


Lightning flashed across the sky, lighting for a moment the dark kitchen. The knife block stood on the counter, with a knife missing. Not one knife, but two.
 The rain fell heavily that night.



Writer’s memo: This piece, although sad, was not meant to be quite so depressing. The ending sort of just came to me while writing in class. I started this piece in the lab while just writing for fun. I didn’t have a past idea for it or a plan. The story just came to me. This is flash fiction as it describes only a small part of a larger story.






Personal Choice: Crayons.




CRAYONS
INT – KINDERGARTEN CLASSROOM - DAY
                Open on a full classroom of kindergarteners. Focus on a single student. This is TRAVIS. He is 6. He is wearing a red fire truck t-shirt and poorly washed overalls. Travis has a bowl cut. He is surrounded by similar looking students, but none of them seem to pay attention to him. None of them know the truth about Travis.

EXT – PLAYGROUND – AFTERNOON
     Focus on Travis’s overalls, now spattered in blood. A sharpened blue crayon is held loosely in a tiny fist. A blue minivan pulls up and Travis’s MOM asks:
MOM:
Hey Honey! How was school? Was that boy Jimmy mean to you again today?

     Travis gets into the car.
TRAVIS:
Yeah... But I dealt with it.
     Mom turns back in her seat, sees the blood covering Travis and his overalls.
MOM:
Oh sweetie, not again.

INT – NURSE’S OFFICE – DAY
     Sparsely furnished office. Travis, again wearing the innocent fire truck t-shirt and overalls. He is holding a dripping, sharpened green crayon. NURSE, dressed in white clothes, uses a towel to wipe Travis’s bloodied face.
NURSE:
Travis, sweetie, this isn’t how we handle anger. You have to stop doing this!
     Travis appears to break down crying. The nurse appears to feel bad, the child’s weeping is making her regret her words
TRAVIS:
I’m sorry Miss Nurse. I didn’t know what I was doing.
NURSE:
It’s alright. We’ll just let this one go as well.
     Travis gets up to leave, removes his hands from his face to reveal that he has not actually been crying.
INT – SAME OFFICE – NIGHT
     Lightning. Travis stands in the corner. He holds a sharpened purple crayon. He hides behind the door and says
TRAVIS (innocently)
Miss Nurse? I don’t feel so good.
NURSE
Travis? Is that you?
     The nurse walks by Travis and looks through the doorway. Confused, she turns around. The door swings shut, as if by itself, revealing Travis, with an innocent-seeming grin on his face.
TRAVIS (softly)
Bye Bye Miss Nurse

CUT TO BLACK

     FINAL SCENE:
INT – KINDERGARTEN CLASSROOM – NIGHT
     Focus on a box of crayons. Only a single red crayon remains. Pan out to the classroom which is empty except for a single, trembling student. Travis, still in overalls, still wearing the fire truck tea shirt stands over the box of crayons. Travis is drenched in blood. Travis lifts the final crayon out of the box and walks over to the sharpener. Travis sharpens his crayon ominously. Travis pulls out a white sheet of paper. Travis crudely scrawls a smiley face. A drop of blood falls on the paper.

ROLL CREDITS.

MEMO: I wrote this piece in class when we did the quick write on creating an unexpected character. I didn’t think that the piece would go anywhere but while I was writing I kind of just took the idea and ran with it. When I was finished writing it… even I was more than a little frightened. I’m certainly never going to be able to visit a kindergarten classroom the same way again.







 2nd Personal Choice: Cold Turkey.



He sat in his room, covered in sweat, shaking uncontrollably. All he could think about was that next high, or about the last one. How long had it been? He looked around his room until he saw what he was looking for, sitting on his bedside table. The black, empty capsule, cracked in half, stared at him mockingly, as if to say "Ha! You're too late." It hadn't even been a day. Still, he was overcome by an overwhelming urge to find another pill. This desire possessed the man entirely, and he succumbed to the darkness. 
He awoke on the floor of his tiny, one-room apartment. The pills were scattered around him, covering the floor; all broken, all empty. He was soaked in sweat, and he stepped into his tiny shower. The door shut behind and the water enveloped him. No matter how hot he turned the water up, the shivers would not go away. He walked out of the bathroom, dressed, but still shivering, still panicking. Then, as if by pure miracle, he saw something that made his heart leap. A green pill on his bed. Not the black one's he desired so strongly but a pill nonetheless. He rolled up his sleeve to reveal the small metal circle set above the vein on his arm. It clicked open and the green pill dropped in. Immediately he felt his muscles relax and the shivers subside. He lay on his bed, breathing normally. He took a second to reflect on himself.
The ports were implemented soon after Xanoxine had first been introduced. A legal drug that had no side effects they had said. Easy, safe, fun! Little had everyone known that it was the most addictive substance known to man. The ports made the little pills more effective, easier to take. Of course this caused a panic. First it was outlawed, but then people started dying. Then the government fell. The monetary system, now obsolete, had fallen as well.
His little reverie ended when the little metal circle hissed and the green pill popped out. Empty like all the others. There was no chance that he would find another pill like that in his room. He called his friend. Well, friend was generous. He had never seen this man's face, nor been told his real name. He solely knew him as X. He ran the operation near the man's home. The one problem with this new barter system was that he didn't have anything to trade. All his furniture was long gone, along with most of his possessions. A glint of metal caught his eye. Of course! The watch! It was a relic, analog, and separated from the arm. Nowadays everyone had the time blinking on their wrists always. He grabbed the watch and ran out of the room fast as he could.
X was waiting for him at the corner. His face covered with the same mask he always wore. Black with a yellow X emblazoned on it. The man, panting, ran up to him and showed him the watch without even saying anything. X held up three fingers. "Three?' the man said indignantly,
"This thing is worth at least 10!" X paused, then reluctantly held up five fingers.
"C'mon, this is an heirloom!" X paused, sighed, and reached into his stained, torn overcoat. He pulled out a new pill. Not a single color like all the rest. Yellow and black stripes. A warning? Ignoring it, the man grabbed the pill. Looking at it with wonder, joy, and hate, he rushed back into his tiny, drab, flat. The pills clattered as his feet made contact with them. He fell onto his bed, adrenaline pumping through his heart. He pushed the pill into his port. It hissed closed. His body convulsed, writhing. Eyes wide open, staring. Why did he not listen? Why didn't he quit? The man's body, frozen in a grotesque position, went cold.




Writer’s memo: I wrote this based on a writing assignment during class. I prefer, instead of writing about myself, to write about fictional characters in situations that are nigh on impossible. When you asked us to write about a habit, my mind instantly went to drugs, and this story expanded from there. 





Dear Doctor Zerwin,

This class has been a breath of fresh air in the suffocating enclosure of IB LA classes. The way you encouraged us to work, stay focused, and actually care really changed the way I see writing. Now, rather than dreading it while huddled in my bed the night before a paper, I actually look forward to writing creatively in the future. Although the majority of the pieces that I have written are morbid and full of suffering, that does not in any way reflect how I feel about the class. Thank you for an incredible year.

Regards:


Jay



Books I've Read:

Green Mile: This Stephen King novel was one of the saddest books I've ever read. That being said, it was still a phenomenal read.

Abraham Lincoln, Vampire Slayer: As ridiculous as this sounds as a book, it was quite good. The movie entirely ruined the point of the book, and thus the concept of vampire in america. An odd concept, but enjoyable nonetheless.

Lincoln Lawyer: This book was amazing. It helps that I am interested in law but even so as a mystery and a thriller this book was an awesome read. The movie does not do it justice. 




Self Evaluation: 


Polished Pieces: 4
Memos:4
Letter/list: 3
Unifying Elements: 4
Reading: 4


Thursday, May 2, 2013

Letters to No one.




If you are reading this, that means that someone else is out there. My name is Jobe. And I’m the only one left.





If you are reading this, that means that someone else is out there. My name is Jobe. And I’m the only one left.





You see, I keep dropping these notes behind me because I feel like you get them. Then again, I don’t actually know that. It’s just a feeling. But It keeps me alive. It keeps me going.




Since it happened, I have been walking. Walking for hours, days, seems like years. All this time without human contact. I miss humans. That is, I miss normal humans. I hope with every fiber of my being that you are getting these.





I need you. I need anyone. I need someone. I write these notes every day for you, but I still have no indication that they have been anything but blown away by the wind. I think tomorrow I will write you another note, and then I will give up.





This is it. I am done. I am the last one. And I have given up hope. I’ve saved my last bullet for this last purpose. If there actually is anyone reading these, I’m sure the next thing that you see along this path with not be as pretty as my white strips of paper. Goodbye.


Thursday, April 4, 2013

Heavy Rain

The rain fell heavily that night. Heavier than it had in years. Not normal rain, but a rain that was much darker. She sat on her porch step and let the rain fall around her. It was done. The rain washed away the pain from what happened. Whenever she closed her eyes, all she could see was his face. Did she do the right thing? He deserved it, didn’t he? The woman stood, as if some invisible force was pulling her up, and began to walk away from the nowdark apartment complex.
The knife, now washed clean, dropped from her hand and crashed to ground. This sound seemed to wake the woman and she began to run. The rain fell in torrents, soaking the woman to her core. As she ran the rain seemed to envelop everything, As soon as she closed her eyes, the rain no longer felt like water. In the dark night, lit only by a solitary streetlamp long passed by, the rain looked like blood. Reminding her of what she had done. The man’s face again swam into her thoughts, pleading with her, asking for forgiveness. But there would be no forgiveness. Not for him. The woman’s tears mixed with the rain.
Her reverie was shattered when the blast of sirens broke the air. First one police car, lit up with sirens, drove by, followed immediately by another one. Finally, an ambulance finished the grim, flashing, procession. The woman's heart all but stopped. She crouched on the curb, hoping that the torrents of rain would shield her from sight. The sirens faded, and soon the only noise was the heavy downpour.
She kept running; the rhythmic rise and fall of her feet becoming more spread out. Just get back to her building. That is all she needed to do. There it was. Relief washed over the woman. She staggered to the door, and struggled to fit the key into the lock. The lock gave with a satisfying ‘click’ and the woman fell through onto the dry, dimly lit, hallway. The door slammed shut behind her.It took all the effort in the world for the woman to get herself to the third floor, through the door marked 4, and into her warm, sparsely furnished apartment. She peeled off her soaked clothes and turned the shower nozzle as far left as it would go. She sat at the bottom of her shower clutching her knees, the hot water pouring over her. Her tears mixed with the water. He didn’t deserve it. He didn’t deserve any of this. The minutes passed agonizingly. She ran through what happened in her head over and over again. The look of terror on his face; the face she once loved.

The heated water ran out and once again became a freezing torrent. The woman jumped out of the shower, turned the nozzle, and wrapped herself in a towel. As she walked out of the bathroom into the kitchen, one thing above all caught her eye: The knife block. One knife was missing. She knew where it was. Sitting outside the man’s apartment complex, The woman collapsed against the counter, wracked by sobs. The woman stood.

Lightning flashed across the sky, lighting for a moment the dark kitchen. The knife block stood on the counter, with a knife missing. Not one knife, but two. The rain fell heavily that night.

Thursday, February 28, 2013

We walked down a road in times past
Wishing things would work out at last
With a billow of smoke and the crack of a whip

The devil stood next to me and you
Made us an offer we couldn't refuse

"How would you like to live like kings?
In a palace full of beautiful things
Full of gold and diamonds and rings
Beautiful maidens that sing.
There's only one catch, 
You must leave each other be.
Ask if I'm joking, just wait and see" 

Monday, February 25, 2013

Gray Death

               The perfect crime. What is it? Is it a crime performed with impunity? Is it a crime without a victim? A crime without anyone to commit it? Most people think the perfect crime is the crime committed without getting caught. In this case it was not so simple.

            His name was Simon Glass. He was average. Not just average but absolutely unnoticeable. Nothing about the man stuck out in any way. Not his demeanor, not his dress, not his looks. Average height, average build. Gray hair and gray eyes. Simon Glass was a killer. A killer trained to perfection. Simon sat in his room, face expressionless. The phone rang, piercing the silence with its shrill demand for attention. After a ring Glass walked over to the phone, picked it up and answered. A deep voice said two words. A name. A target. Then a date and a time. The date was the same day. The time, two hours from when the phone rang. Glass put the phone down calmly, as if he had just been told a lunch order. He walked over to his closet and pulled out an average-looking suit. Gray, like Simon himself. He slipped a gray tie through the gray shirt he already wore. He slipped on his gray gloves. Not ordinary gloves, but ordinary looking gloves nonetheless. He slipped a red handkerchief into his jacket pocket. A bloodstain in his otherwise charcoal exterior.

            Simon Glass sat in a coffee shop, pretending to read the paper he had placed in front of him. His eyes darted back and forth across the street, focusing anywhere but on the newspaper. The exact change for the coffee already sat on the table in front of him; he was ready. The gray smoke from a cigarette billowed around him. Out of the corner of his peripheral vision, Glass saw his target. Another average looking man, but a man that stood out to Glass. A collared shirt, sleeves rolled up. Perfect. He set down his paper and put out his cigarette, releasing a momentary flash of orange ash just as the man passed and stood. He strode after the man, quickening his pace. Simon Glass placed his gloved hand on the man’s wrist for a mere second. The man spun around, confused. Glass, his face a perfect mask of confusion, blurted out an apologetic “I’m sorry. I thought you were someone else.” He then veered off in a different direction almost immediately. The average looking man in the gray suit was gone.

A block away, Simon’s target collapsed. He was dead before he hit the ground.

Back in his drab apartment, Glass took off his gloves with a delicacy that betrayed their simple exterior. Next came the coat and he set it on an armchair. Opening his closet door carefully, Simon hung up the gray jacket next to gray suit after gray suit. He set the gloves in a case next to a peculiar glass box. Inside were the most colorful things in the room. Frogs of such magnificent shades that they stuck out, to the point where they almost glowed.

That was the magic of Simon Glass. A single touch and he was gone. Gone like a wisp of smoke. Gone like a shadow in the dark. Gone.

Thursday, February 7, 2013

Calm... Down...

 I am giving you the direct order to calm down. Right now.

Calm down like the paper due tomorrow got pushed back a week
Calm down like you just robbed a bank and your team's van is far ahead of the cops
Calm down like there was a zombie apocalypse but you still have your twinkies
Calm down like the girl that you've loved for years finally said yes.

Who am i kidding? PANIC

Panic like your parachute is sitting in your car, forgotten
Panic like there actually is no tomorrow
Panic like there are only 17 Almonds left
Panic like you just saw a dinosaur
Panic like it's the top of a roller-coaster and your seat belt is broken
Panic like you just got shot
Panic like all the rum is gone
Panic like you have ten seconds to eject
Panic like the silence before the answer you dread.
Panic like they have landed and they do Not like us
Panic like you heart has stopped beating
Panic like you can't breathe.

Thursday, January 31, 2013

Cold Turkey

He sat in his room, covered in sweat, shaking uncontrollably. All he could think about was that next high, or about the last one. How long had it been? He looked around his room until he saw what he was looking for, sitting on his bedside table. The black, empty capsule, cracked in half, stared at him mockingly, as if to say "Ha! You're too late." It hadn't even been a day. Still, he was overcome by an overwhelming urge to find another pill. This desire possessed the man entirely, and he blacked out. 
He awoke on the floor of his tiny, one-room apartment. The pills were scattered around him, covering the floor; all broken, all empty. He was soaked in sweat, and he stepped into his tiny shower. The door shut behind and the water enveloped him. No matter how hot he turned the water up, the shivers would not go away. He walked out of the bathroom, dressed, but still shivering,still panicking. Then, as if by pure miracle, he saw something that made his heart leap. A green pill on his bed. Not the black one's he desired so strongly but a pill nonetheless. He rolled up his sleeve to reveal the small metal circle set above the vein on his arm. It clicked open and the green pill dropped in. Immediately he felt his muscles relax and the shivers subside. He lay on his bed. breathing normally. He took a second to reflect on himself. The ports were implemented soon after Xanoxine had first been introduced. A legal drug that had no side-effects they had said. Easy, safe, fun! Little had everyone known that it was the most addictive substance known to man. The ports made the little pills more effective, easier to take. Of course this caused a panic. First it was outlawed, but then people started dying. Then the government fell. The monetary system, now obsolete, had fallen as well.  His little reverie ended when the little metal circle hissed and the green pill popped out. Empty like all the others. There was no chance that he would find another pill like that in his room. He called his friend. Well, friend was generous. He had never seen this man's face, nor been told his real name. He solely knew him as X. He ran the operation near the man's home. The one problem with this new barter system was that he didn't have anything to trade. All his furniture was long gone, along with most of his possessions. A glint of metal caught his eye. Of course! The watch! It was a relic, analog, and separated from the arm. Nowadays everyone had the time blinking on their  wrists always. He grabbed the watch and ran out of the room fast as he could. X was waiting for him at the corner. His face covered with the same mask he always wore. Black with a yellow X emblazoned on it. The man, panting, ran up to him and showed him the watch without even saying anything. X held up three fingers. "Three?' the man said indignantly, "This thing is worth at least 10!" X paused, then reluctantly held up five fingers."C'mon, this is an heirloom!" X paused, sighed, and reached into his stained, torn overcoat. He pulled out a new pill. Not a single color like all the rest. Yellow and black stripes. A warning? Ignoring it, the man grabbed the pill. Looking at it with both wonder, joy, and hate, he rushed  back into his tiny, drab, flat. The pills clattered as his feet made contact with them. He fell onto his bed, adrenaline pumping through his system. He pushed the pill into his port. It hissed closed. His body convulsed, writhing. Eyes wide open, staring. Why did he not listen? Why didn't he quit? The man's body, frozen in a grotesque position, goes cold. 

Friday, January 18, 2013

#asylumswag

Why am I here? Yeah, I know. People ponder the big questions in life, about existence, life, the world and all the connotations that it brings. The only question on my mind is "Why am I here?" Literally, why this room? This slate-colored room of concrete. Why? Deep down, if I really think about it. I know the answer. It all goes back to about a month ago. Or was it yesterday? Who knows anymore. The concept of time is beginning to escape me. My name is Edward Patraglia. But ever since I can remember, everybody's called me Elvis. I can't remember why that started, or why Elvis. Then again, nowadays I can't remember much. Anyway, back to my concrete cube. Why am I here? Why me? WHY? Again, the more I think about what happened in the past, the more it seems to coagulate inside my head. Court. Everyone was wearing suits, I remember seeing and hearing my name a lot. I remember twelve somber people looking at me with what seemed like pity. Now I'm stuck in this cube. The only link I have left to the outside world is my twitter feed. #whyamihere. It seems unfair, but maybe that's just because I just can't remember anything. #whathappened. I've stopped wondering, and now I've pretty much just accepted that I will be here until I die. I black out.

I wake up and experience the strange sensation of not being able to move my arms. What was this white thing that stopped me from moving? WHY? A burly security guard looks down at me. He tells me a story of how I broke out of my cell and almost ripped a nurse's throat out. Me? I don't remember doing that at all... Is that why I'm here? Did i do it before? The guard sticks a needle into my arm and blackness takes me again. When I wake up again the straight jacket is off, but next to me sits a small paper cup filled with pills. So many shapes and colors. A solitary sticky note sits next to it. Take Immediately, it reads in immaculate handwriting. I take the pills quickly. My twitter feed sits next to me. I see posts I can't remember. #therapy. #gettingbetter. The last one on the feed, dated yesterday, catches in my throat. #insane. Me? Did I write that? Am I insane? The only answer that even remotely makes sense to me is Yes. #Darkness. #Acceptance. #Insanity.

Thursday, January 17, 2013

Names

My name has always defined me more than the regular person. No one else gets the name James Norman Kranzdorf. No one else has that gift. I call it a gift but for as long as I can remember as soon as i break out my full name, all it is met with is snickers and giggles. Simplicity has always appealed to me. First it was James. Then it got shorter; Jim. Finally I found the name that defines me. A singular letter. J. Jay. I've been going by Jay for years, and that defines me more than most things. It sets me apart, because very few people go by Jay.